reality really bites

alright here are some insights to my life and mind, mostly.

I am not a religious person. The only ‘religious’ thing I do every year, if you can call it that, is to visit this Goddess of Mercy Temple at Pitt Street during CNY and offer joss sticks.

A couple of years ago, I was at a very low point in my life and I asked God (in general) for some help. When I said I asked, I meant I was down on my knees praying to whoever that is up there.

Of course, things didn’t work and I was devastated.

I knew it was on me and not him but I also knew I’d done everything I could possibly do to salvage it so why couldn’t things go my way for once?

Because life is not fair.

Fast forward to now.

Now, I’ve always believed that there is a reason why things happened. Reasons, purpose, however you wanna call it.

However, right now, at this point in my life, I am not really sure if I have faith anymore.

I don’t know whether its because I have too much time on my hands lately or this is what everyone has to go through at least once in their life but what I do know is I feel lost and I have never felt this way before.

I don’t know what I want to do and I don’t know if I will like doing what I should do and most of all, I do not like not knowing where I will be in 5 year’s time or even next year.